Two weeks ago, I had my measurements taken by the couturier’s assistant for my gown that I’d be wearing for my brother’s wedding. After which, the couturier started sketching his suggestions for my gown. With the current state of my body, I asked him to hide several flaws. Well, not really hide. More like leading the eyes away from them. We ended up having 3 sketches before I finally agreed on a design. (I think he was sort of annoyed by me and my sister for rejecting the first two sketches. )

I could always take those diet pills that work in time for the wedding. But I’m afraid it would have adverse effect as I am breastfeeding my baby. Honestly, I’d want to lose weight soon not only for this wedding, but in time for my baby’s christening too. Well, if I don’t, I can always have my daughter stand in front of me for picture taking. Haha!

My mother accompanied me to my OB since husband is going to work that day. We were early at the clinic that the secretary was not even in yet. After checking me, the OB would like me to have an ultrasound but the sonologist wasn’t in yet too. So to bid time, the OB asked my mom how she maintained her figure.

My mom shared her daily food consumption: heavy breakfast but skipping dinner. Although I’m sure colon cleansers like cleansonix would help in maintaining one’s figure at “mature” age, my mom is such an active woman that her blood circulation is good. I read that having good circulation gives the oxygen to our blood making us healthier, which explains the fast metabolism she still has. Lucky!

I was reading through this slimvox review and wondered if I can go back to my pre-wedding weight. No, I’m not talking about my weight before I got pregnant with my daughter. I’m talking about my weight way back in 2003-2004 when I was considered hot, before the wedding preparations.

When I looked through my daughter’s baptismal photos, I smiled and realized I wasn’t as fat as I thought I was. It was just two months after giving birth and yet, I looked slimmer then than before I got pregnant again now. So I guess I’d be able to go back to that weight, but clueless if I can go back to my “ideal” weight. As years go by, it becomes harder and harder for me to do just that. Tsk tsk.

A friend tagged me on one of her Facebook photos. But instead of people on the photo, it was a photo of a mouth-watering cheeseburger. Yeah, she’s a tease. Hahaha. I told her that my OB says I’m now overweight, and therefore should watch my diet. I am also now on my 5th month so I should watch my salt intake if I don’t want to look so bloated.

I promised myself that within two years after giving birth, I will be back to my ideal weight. I will search for diet pills that really work, go back to dancing or jogging as a form of exercise, and stick to just 3 meals a day. Why two years? Because I don’t want to be too hard on myself.

Yeah, right.

Most of my hours are spent sitting in bed. No, I am in no way sick. I am physically well and can still attend to some of my husband’s and daughter’s needs, well, pausing to sit down after every couple of minutes. I walk up and down the stairs as a form of exercise but again, pausing midway every time. I try to eat lots of veggies and fruits, and take my vitamins to stay healthy.

But I work from home these past few days because I am too afraid to travel. I always feel like I’d tip over because of my baby bump. And I don’t think I’m brave enough to ride a cab on my own to the office. I noticed I am so clumsy during this pregnancy so I make sure I hold on to the railings of the stairs when going down. At one time, I missed a step and almost landed on my hips. Thankfully, my hand was fast enough to hold on to something. Whew!

I was browsing the internet to research more on Medicare part D plan when I absentmindedly checked what’s inside our personal ref, which is within reach from my workstation. I smiled looking at a big pack of M&M’s (peanuts) which until now is yet to be opened. My daughter and I still have cough and sore throats, it would be a pain to eat anything chocolaty. While the husband wouldn’t dare to even have some because of his gout.

The daughter has been taking Ambroxol and Amoxicillin while I was only prescribed a higher dose of Vitamin C. My throat is so itchy, I need to brush my tongue every hour for some relief. I tried Bactidol but it’s too bitter for me, I throw up after gargling. But what worries me most is my unborn baby. I had slight fever having 38.1 centigrade. I hope the baby is fine even if mommy feels so awful. But I feel fine now, and just happy that my temp didn’t continue to shoot up. Now, just the cough. Ugh!

Ideally a pregnant mom gains only 25 pounds all through out the pregnancy. I think I’ll have no trouble about this now on my first trimester. In fact, I think I have lost some weight from all the vomiting. If I eat more than I should, I vomit. If I eat less than I should, I vomit. The amount of food that I should eat, I honestly couldn’t estimate so yes, I vomit all the time.

I have no dreams either of those flat abs I see from the p90x workouts so I honestly wouldn’t mind that my belly will stretch big time in the next couple of months. What I’m worried about is the stitch from my gall bladder removal operation, and how it would feel and look like in my third trimester. I just hope it won’t open up. Nasty!

An officemate was telling us he’s taking creatine powders to help him build his muscles. He wants a nice chest and flat stomach. Then we started joking about our waistlines. I honestly do not monitor my waistline size anymore, unless I’m shopping for jeans, shorts or skirt. The last time I checked, my waistline is still a lower number than my age. That was two months ago. So that’s a relief.

Oh yeah. Since I got my eye infection and swollen lymph node, I unintentionally shed off 3 pounds. I’m not sure if I should be happy or what. Tsk tsk.

While still wondering what weight loss pills are best, I am figuring out if I can wear a more skin-revealing swimsuit later for husband’s team building activity. But I reminded myself that the doctor warned me to stay away from pools to avoid further infection on my eye. I am just going so that my daughter can join, who is very much excited to swim. In short, I’ll be the “nanny”. Hahaha. I’m not sure though if they’d enjoy the swim as it has been raining a lot lately. Anyway, I have charged my SLR battery, and readied my daughter’s pool gun.

**I shall post pics next time.**

With an eye infection and swollen lymph node, I’ve been taking 625mg of antibiotic. What I hate about taking antibiotics is that it makes me feel like vomiting all the time. In order to avoid throwing up, I eat around 5-6 times a day, even at the slightest pang of hunger. Now I wonder what is three best dfiet pill on the market. Maybe I can start worrying about weight gain after my infection is gone, and immune system is back on track.